I haven’t posted anything in a while. I guess because things are going pretty good and there is no crisis or drama going on. I really do not talk to my ex-husband at all, I have found it is better for my daughter if we do not talk. Any form of contact seemed to bring on this series of attacks but he would use our daughter as the weapon. It is like they can’t stand that they can’t get to you and the children to inflict harm.
I am not sure why my ex-husband continues to make appearances in my dreams. He isn’t yelling or being verbally abusive in my dreams. It is almost like when we were first dating and he was trying to be nice.
Dreams are weird. Sometimes they make perfect sense when you think back to a movie or show you watched. Other times they make no sense at and are bizarre like something out of Alice & Wonderland.
When I remember my dreams the next day it makes me wonder if I am perhaps trying to get closure. My dreams are impossible, he is being nice, he is not being his arrogant self. He listens, seems interested and concerned. All the characteristics he does not seem capable of exhibiting.
Although, I have accepted that closure & a peaceful relationship with my ex-husband is not possible. Not because this is not something I would be capable of but because I seriously doubt he could ever be a decent person towards me.
Somethings just will never make sense or have absolute answers.