The effects of verbal abuse can cause physical symptoms that can become emotional scars that can last a lifetime if they are not dealt with. It can be very difficult to figure out that you are in a verbally abusive relationship and even more difficult to prove in the court of law. That is not... Continue Reading →
Tolerating the Abuse vs Fear of the Unknown
For anyone reading my posts, I apologize if it seems like I am always jumping around. I just write my posts depending on where my memories lead me. One of the things I thought about the other day is how long I stayed with my abusive ex-husband because of fear. Fear really kept me paralyzed... Continue Reading →
Domestic Abuse and PTSD
I had a conversation with a family member the other day that was very angry about all the talk about Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) with military individuals. He referred to it as a, "Post Traumatic Stupid Disorder." I felt rather offended by his statement because his blanket statement could also have included me. I... Continue Reading →
PTSD & Panic Attacks – Abuse Side Effects
One thing I have struggled with ongoing is PTSD & Panic/Anxiety attacks. These symptoms were really bad when I was still married to the abuser, but I didn't know I was having symptoms at the time. Even after I left the abuser and the Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) got really bad it still took... Continue Reading →
Was My Husband Poisoning Me or Was the Relationship Toxic
You may find this shocking to believe that I once use to question if my ex-husband was poisoning me. I actually thought it was pretty crazy to think such a thing. I certainly did not think a normal person would even consider such a thing. I cannot tell you how many doctor's I visited during those years... Continue Reading →
Abusive Experiences – Journal Email Entries 2006
Journal Email Entries - 12/3/2006 Our daughter came home from her dad's house then she and I went to Walmart to buy her a desk. When we got home I told her to take a bath. She was crying and calling for me. She said her vagina hurt. I asked her what it felt like. ... Continue Reading →
Getting Over the Scars of Emotional Abuse
It is rather amazing how long it takes to deal with the emotional scars of a verbally abusive relationship. I am married to a really great man now and it can really affect our relationship today. There are times when a situation will trigger a memory and it sort of brings me back to the... Continue Reading →
Verbal Abuse and the Internal Scars
I am going to start with today and jump around because I would like to create a balance of positive with the negative effects of verbal abuse. At this time my greatest challenge is trying to keep my daughter out of being in the middle. My ex constantly is asking her questions about my husband and I. It took me the longest time to figure out what was going on with my daughter. He was very manipulative and would say things... without really saying things. For instance, he wouldn't say I was a bad mom, he would say "Your mom is going to get mad at you" or "You are going to get in trouble with your mom." He wasn't asking her if she wanted to come live with him, he would say "Wouldn't it be great if you got to live with me all the time."